Resistance has been my master for years, though I would not have admitted it. Not because I didn’t want to, but because I was blind to recognize it.
I used to call Resistance by various names. It was rational thinking, choosing the right path, listening to the Wise Ones, sorting out life problems, or being in charge of down-to-earth urgent tasks. However, the urgent tasks were usually not the most important ones.
Resistance came in disguise, however.
As a chatter in my head.
As the voice of rational thought.
As procrastination in the times of overwhelm.
As a fear to do the impossible.
As responsibilities, tasks and duties.
As roles to keep up with.
Do you do your thing in the world?
In making a far-fetched generalization, I suppose that you, like me, may feel the urge inside to do your thing. Perhaps, like me, you are scared to death. Scared such that it feels nearly impossible to walk this path.
I can call it Calling.
In a moment of a conscious introspection, have you had a glimpse of a person you might be? The brave one, the bold one on a mission?
Are you a song writer who doesn’t write songs?
Are you a business owner without a business?
Are you a teacher without pupils?
Resistance is the gap between the life you have and the one that you sense is possible.
If I want to simplify it to one ingredient, it will become fear.
Resistance is real.
It’s a force.
A primitive one, permeating everyone alive.
Protean. Strong. Directed.
Resistance is like tension that keeps you crippled and small.
Resistance is like a closed gate that you don’t dare to open.
Resistance is like an authority who tells you you can’t.
It doesn’t sound too bad, but don’t be fooled.
Resistance’s exists not to weaken you, but to kill.
This killing is about the call you have inside.
Or we can say, that its goal is to prevent birth. Of the creative endeavor that dwells in you.
Resistance cannot be seen, but it can be felt. It is a force to move you away from doing the Work. The important Work, that is. (Not your usual tasks and households.)
Resistance seems to come from outside. There are many excuses not do to the Work.
Job. Obligations. Illnesses. Kids. Bosses. Friends. Lack of time. Lack of money. Lack of skills. Pains.
Don’t be fooled again.
Resistance is within. It comes from you.
It will take any form to convince you that you wouldn’t, shouldn’t or musn’t do the Work.
If you respond to criticism, it will show you how stupid you will look in the eyes of others.
If you respond to reason, it will sell you logical arguments for not doing the Work.
If you respond to pain, it will convince you how painful the decisions and actions may be.
If you need social attention, it will convince you about your loneliness or loss of friends.
Resistance has to be treated with respect.
Resistance is always there. It never takes breaks. It never sleeps.
It will use any way, method or strategy to keep you passive.
It cannot be reasoned with. It has always compelling arguments you can’t oppose.
Resistance finds supporters.
If you choose to abandon your carrier to follow your inner calling, you may experience that the whole world conspires against you.
Perhaps your old friends are not friends any longer. Perhaps your family is unsupportive, explaining you how stupid things you do. Perhaps you will get an amazing promotion offer at the job you decided to quit. Perhaps there are shining, luring possibilities to earn more money if you stay. Perhaps your son gets suddenly ill. Perhaps your mother dies. Perhaps there is a marriage crisis. Yes. Perhaps.
Such events may happen because the awaking soul, subconsciously, radiates the strength and power to beat the inner demons. To overcome inactivity and to move towards the act of creation.
Resistance will use any way to keep you unchanging.
It may also take a form of procrastination or any addiction or destructive habit, be it alcohol, over-eating, self-hurt, accident-likelihood, neurosis, illness, chronic fatigue etc.
Your real nature is transformation and growth.
Whatever form Resistance takes and however it acts, your way is to accept it exists, become conscious and do the Work. Remember, there is no way you can reason with it. If you begin, you have already lost.
Accept Resistance and walk your path. There is no other way. In the end, Resistance is your friend.
“Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, magic, and power in it.
Begin it now.”
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe